dream

We were both happy together in this old cafeteria.

I asked what you wanna eat, and you told me we'll check it out together.

We talked, laughed and ate together.

Everything was just so so so so perfect.

I never wanted this to end, it was too good to be true.

It was as if we're lovers.

My phone rang, and I'm all alone.

It was just a dream.

It was a too good to be true kinda dream.

I miss you, I think I do.

paranoid

I'll be sleeping in fear,

What a paranoid!

one last time

Maybe you assumed to much.

I might not be acting, if that's what you've been thinking all the while.

I just want you to know the truth.

I did not lie, nor did I act to get any of your sympathy.

I don't wanna live with this regret, I want you to know the truth.

I'm disappointed, how can I not be?

I've been true all the while, you say you know, but do you believe me?

How close were we in being one?

It hurts to know the truth, but I hope you know.

What I've been doing all the while, is sincere.

And I truly do love you, and loved you.

I'm letting go, at least that's the best solution.

Help me would you?

I need your hands.

One last time, baby.

ps

p/s: please don't let me sleep in fear, anymore. can we just make it right?

maybe?

I told you I love you,

And I said it's true.

I told you I miss you,

And I said it's true.

That was then.



You can choose to doubt or you might have doubted my words.



But after all, all I ask of now is pretty much simple.

Trust each and every words that I say.

I've been doing what you want, and not doing what you don't want me too.

I'll keep doing it your way.

All I ask of now is just a little time, so I can have my final say.

I'm sincere, and let's not ruin it.



I wonder if, can this page be automatically displayed at your browser?

I want you to read all that I wrote so much, but I know you'll never do.

Keeping this rant to myself, maybe.

God bless, Amen.

pain, dying, trying

When you feel the pain,

It is not that you're dying.

It is that because you're trying.

human nature

Where else can I rant on, but here?


When it all started, you said it was too early and you were not ready.


Getting it right, on the perfect time is how it should be.


In the midst of everything, when we wished we could have more time, I thought the time was all wrong.


And now, I wonder if I'm a little too late?


Or very late?


I'm pretty much annoyed with how we humans behave, myself and everyone around me.


Why God?

love

You asked me am I not feeling well or am I sleepy?

I said no, I'm not in the mood. I didn't even eat.

You asked me why didn't you eat?

I said I don't know.





If only you remember what you told me last night, do you?

If I'm honest, I could have answered "I'm disappointed" to both of the questions.

But I guess I love you too much.

note to self

Note to self:

So be yourself, its all that you can do.

could you do the same?

three words wrap around the fingers, in the future.

two person sharing the same vow.

one word, love.

When failure is a part of your life

Experience had taught me not to put high hopes on you,

You showed me the art of being inconsistent, consistently.

When failure is a part of your life, a routine,

You no longer feel the pain of being rejected anymore.

But somehow,

I have a strong feeling.

If I happen to be triumphant in such a losing war,

Expect a big celebration,

Where patience and loyalty is the VIP.

hell

I need more words.

What the hell am I talking about?

when can i hold your hand?

when can i hold your hand?

and call you baby.

count to six and die

and I quote



"Some do it fast,
Some do it better in smaller amounts."


Marilyn Manson in Count to Six and Die

I will

I'll hold on when I want to,

I'll let go when I need to.