I'm only human

I hate this time of the year. For the past two years, I was in love and loved in return. I was happy, spoil and really pampered. This time around, it's totally different. Thinking back, I supposed it's a good experience. Think again, I'm only human. I have emotions and I have a brain that stores images and voices of people around me, of people whom I loved, and loved me.

The beginning of the year is always the hardest for me. The whole atmosphere of what's going on around reminds me, of what we used to be. You might say I'm stubborn, but try putting yourself in my shoes. You'll know that you defined me wrongly. I ain't God, I'm only human.

I tried to talk to you about it, but there's no response to it. I tried to say hello, but you never even say goodbye. I know it's not an issue of who sacrificed more, but I think you over did it a little too much. I'm only human.

As for you, we talked about it. Every time when we're gonna conclude it, well, if you ever wanna have a conclusion or an end to it, you run away from it. I'm not you, and you're not me. How can action be replaced with simple words? Do you know how much it hurts? Once again, I'm only human.

You both lied too much, and I wonder if those are white lies. At least they're not white to me. I don't really think I deserve it, and should I be glad that you're both gone?

It's all really messy and fucked up.
I tried to be kind, but now I'm the one losing my mind.
I don't miss you, I just miss her.
Yes I miss you, not her.